2013: A Year of No EXCUSES

Here we are a week of 2013 behind us. How are things going for me now? Well, I can't complain. I am over a month caffeine free and almost 3 months carbonation free. I am working on making my life happier and healthier. I have been hard at work for the last week trying to lose weight. I have gone to the gym, I have been working on all my muscles groups.

I have spent time walking on the treadmill. I try to do a decent pace with some incline. I start with that and then I move on to the Nautilus machines. I work mostly my upper body on those.

Yesterday for the first time in probably 15 years I used free weights. Dumbbells and bench-presses. I felt kind of embarrassed that the amount of weight that I was benching was so small, but, I guess i gotta start somewhere. I was benching the weight bar plus 20 pounds and plus 30 pounds. I am not sure exactly what the bar weighs, but, I think it is about 50 pounds. I was benching somewhere around 80 pounds.  I guess it could have been worse, but, it could also have been better.

We also took "before" pictures and I tell you if that isn't the way to motivate yourself into weight loss, I don't know what is. I then posted these pictures in our weight loss group. I just wanted to crawl into a hole. Sweat pants are not flattering...to anyone, but, especially an over weight individual. Even as much as I hate that picture I see potential in where I can go with that body. I see that there is still a lot of good left in that body. I want to leave that body behind and find one I am more comfortable in. I hope that I have found a group of people that will help me get to where I am going. It's easier to do it with others than by yourself.

My goal by February 14th is to be done 25 pounds and I think it will happen. I know that now when I get hungry I grab salad or pickles instead of bread and peanut butter or something like that. No more sausage and cheese, no more soda and especially no more constant snacking. I wait until I am hungry instead of just bored. The first really big test will be when something emotional happens. Good or bad, my family is eaters. Bad things happen, you eat to feel better. Good things happen, you eat to celebrate. I think it will all be fine, but, it is going to take will power and a realization that my entire mind set has to change.

I think a lot of my posts this year will be in a way like this. I intend to document my ups and my downs. My successes and my failures. I am human, I will fail. I am human, I will fight back against myself if I have to.

Until Tomorrow...
Jaxion